I had my regular psychiatrist appointment on Tuesday, and he was really happy with my progress overall – which makes me feel pretty awesome if I’m honest. Then we started talking about mood stabilisers, and he asked if I still wanted to give them a go. Again, we agreed on giving quetiapine a go – 25mg, just a small dose. He went through the side effects, weight gain, sleepiness, nausea, all fun stuff.
Then he came to irritibility and said that I should definitely come off them if I start feeling particularly irritable.
It’s been two days since I started taking them – and I feel like the biggest bitch on the planet, as well as feeling like a zombie. A perpetually bitchy zombie.
The Other Half was trying to wake me up for an hour this morning, but I was practically comatose. I felt amazing when I woke up, really well rested. Then a few hours passed and I was snappy and groggy all over again. I cannot afford to be this grumpy all the time, I’ve started as a volunteer, I’ve applied for jobs and I’m trying to clear out the flat of clutter – I need energy and to be in a good mood. I’ve been doing so well and I’m fed up of it.
It’s taken me ages just to write this. My brain is just mush. It’s nearly 11pm, I ordered pizza a while ago and I want to hibernate.